Enter the dance
Friday, April 9th, 2010I enter the dance. Step into. Roll into. Fly into. Climb into. Descend into. Elevate into. Enter into light from light or enter light from darkness. Back into. Fall into. Approach boldly or briskly, gently or with a whisk.
I enter with all and every that I know and with a window open to what I can not at this moment know. One given I can not escape is that from moment of entry through the last standing moment of completion, I will become what I did not know before. I will certainly recognize myself yet I may, in the weeks to come, have to spend time practicing entering a newly found reality.
And it is the awe of this entry moment that captivates all my senses. The space I am about to enter speaks its own anticipation in gross vibrations of the skin covering my body. A faster rumbling enters my spine as I take in the awe inspiring preparation moments of fellow dancers, participants, and arriving audience if there is one.
Deep within my heart I continue to reconcile the map of the journey ahead of me with my inner dialog for clarity and purpose. And my feedback system is always rolling up from my gut carrying any residual doubts, always calling my enter life into question.
Rumbling and rattling like an old jet preparing for take-off, my experience is something just beyond overwhelming fear. My enter structure of soft tissue is on the verge of palpating in unison while I am negotiating with myself to love each sensation rather than dread what I have got myself into.
From my bones, a broader wave of vibration overwhelms all the echoes in every chamber of myself. And finally at the crest of entering the dance, I send out a final wave of gratitude to all the immensely courageous dancers and explorers who have come to this moment. And especially I send a shower of thankful flowers and waterfalls to all my persistent parents, mentors, and teachers who have walked this fire with me. I can not thank them enough for holding the vision of the road ahead through all my fear, unwillingness or just my strict avoidance of taking this step I am about to take right now.

